I Am She: Eng

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Tuesday, 11 June 2013 Eng, Poems 0 comments

Prayer

They say,

You never leave..

O God,

Please never leave..

Thinking

My softmints,

Are not soft,

Anymore.

I stand thinking,

Here,

At the door.

A Flower

A flower when full,
Gives a lovely view,
Without light and food,
A flower leaves all hue,
And it also is a picture,
Of me, without you....
An old news it sure is,
I know it looks not new.

And so,
even now,
after when this mind has turned into a barren land of bewilderment
and after when this heart has become a silent desert of dried wishes,
I keep some flowers inside though withered,
they still have color, they still are perfumy.

Will you marry me???

My each feeling turned red,

When he asked me,

"Will you marry me???"

Gosh! I was so happy..

And do you know,

What happened next?

I woke up....

Heart Transplant

Would have gone

For an urgent heart transplant,

Indeed,

If,

A changed heart beating pattern

Was gauranteed..

And,

Since they don't gaurantee,

I don't agree...

My Sun

While coming back to my hostel today,

I thought,

If not in rain,
I should, at least take an umbrella with me,
in this scorching heat of the boiling sun.

But then,

I thought,

Why the hell would I ignore my sun?

I Sigh

Under the starry sky, stood you and I,

With night so dark, I seemed so shy!

Close you were with me that moment,

But................. went in vain all my try!

Weakened was I, in the gaze of thy eye,

Bloody my heart that could not fly!

Audible it was, did you hear the cry?

I sigh, I sigh, I sigh, I sigh, I sigh.....

O Grany

I know,

You sleep in the grave,

Would you,

Even then,

Listen to me, O Grany?

Look,

My pieces are scattered,

And are many,

More than many,

But,

You would be happy,

O Grany, To know,

Though pieces are many,

Every piece is complete,

In it's price of a penny.

And now, O Grany,

Would you speak,

If I ask for an advice,

If you have any??

I'm Blue

Despite all the beauty,
Despite all the charm around,
Why, even then,
This white ashen heart is bound ?
And then among all,
Heartache is the worst, horribly worst.
I have heard,
When you give your heart the highest roar,
It hurts no more, it hurts no more.
But what if one considers pain,
The only gain,
The dearest gain ?
It is okay for it is true.
Yes, I'm blue.

Life - (by me)

Yes, life is beautiful and along with that, it is cruel too.

It has its own eyes, it has its own ears and hands, and it has its own heart and mind.
It doesn't care much about what we humans feel or want it to be. It goes on its own path and it follows its own heart.
And it is not bad at all. I think, it is the beauty, it is the charm.
Why should it do what we ask it? Why can't it be the ideal of it's own?
It can, for sure and that's what it does no matter what.

We are happy when we see life going our way and we feel sad when we find it doing something that doesn't please us.
It is natural, it is normal. It is not that life sometimes pleases us and other times offends us. Its just that life is doing what it wants. It doesn't know about when we do become happy and when do we cry over little and big things.It is just moving on like water does, like wind does.

Things are simple. Let me say, life is an event and we all are invited to the event to make it memorable and play our part. On this event, some among us would love the songs, others would hate and the rest would have no concern. Again, on this event, some would like the food items and would enjoy eating, others would just wish there should have been something of their choice and there would surely be some faces who would have no such problem, they would actually be happy with everything be it good or bad, be it of their choice or not. Simple! Isn't it?

Everything looks fine at its time. I know, nobody would disagree if I say, laughing is good, being happy is good, helping in all the possible ways is good. And I hope you would also agree if I say, crying is good, anger is good.
Thank you if you agree and try to understand if you disagree.

You see, life is a blend of countless things. If I can laugh when I want to, I can cry either when I have to. Why should we always keep controlling and giving our inside a shut up call only because we are afraid of the eyes outside? It is not mandatory to give reasons to those who ask us the reason of crying. Of course, we don't have to.

Did anyone ever ask you, ''why are you not crying today''?
The answer is a big No. So why should there be questions otherwise? Right? Yeah, right.

It also doesn't mean to get harsh with the questions. We can so softly tell them, its simply because we have to cry for a while to get things balanced inside out. Tears are not bad at all. Tears are my life's symbol. They have made me whole.
I like those who can cry without showing much concern about what would others say about them and this is how things should be.

I never heard anyone saying that he is afraid of smiling or laughing but crying. Don't be if so. So what if we want to cry or sit in silence for some short time? So what if we are down? So what if things are going bad? So what man, so what??? Do not stop yourself from both the emotions be it a laugh or a cry. Both are beautiful in their own particular ways. Both are the symbols of life. Both are necessary. Had they not been here, life would have been numb. Right?

Life just wants us to be honest with it.
Honesty is the ingredient, truthfulness is the need, love is the word.

You want to laugh? Just laugh.
You have a reason to cry? Just cry.
You want to say YES? Say it.
You want to return a No? Return it.

You have to have an honest leap like a child does. Yes, never lose your childhood. Be a child at whatever age you reach and whatever maturity it demands

Whatever way you take the moment, take it fully, own it fully. Life wants us to live it to the fullest.
Doesn't it? Believe me, it does and there lies the peace, there lies the beauty.

I met Maria today..

Maria says, her husband loves her. She is married to Fakhar. He is a tall guy with a black mole on the extreme right of his chin. Today at 5.30pm, I saw Maria with her 1 year old son sitting on a bench in Jinnah Garden Lahore.

She seemed as if she belonged to a fine family. Her clothes Were finely stitched and she had a clear skin. The mother and the son would be looking good to the other people around but I dont know, something inside me just compelled me to talk to her. I hesitated first but slowly i went closer and sat on the same bench.

I said, " hi ! your son is so adorable :)

She said, Thank you.

Quite then she took out her cell phone and called in her husband Fakhar. Her husband probably cut her call.

She uttered the word, 'AGAIN'....

And all of a sudden she shouted at me why the heck i was sitting there. Before I could say something, she started crying in helplessness.I didnt know what to do but i kept sitting there until she stopped crying. I then held her hand firmly and asked her to look at me. And once she did, i found a dead life in her eyes. I asked her to trust me and share the pain.

And then she spoke !

What she spoke? I ll tell you.

Maria and Fakhar got married two years back. It was an arrange marriage for Maria as she had never seen him before her marriage. But Fakhar had seen her before twice.

According to Maria, Fakhar doesnot keep any bad habits, he is of the sound mind.

Kabhi kabhi wo i love you bhi bol daita hai

Then she uttered, "Sana"

Sana has been working with Fakhar in the same company for about 6 years. Fakhar had told her about their friendship on the first night of their marriage. Maria was happy with the friendship. she had never questioned it.

But with each passing day, Maria found Fakhar engaged in texting someone all day long. When she asked whom he was texting. He would say, 'a friend' a0nd nothing else he would say. She believed and didnt take it on nerves..

But,

Now every day when she wakes up, she finds him texting Sana. The same pain she feels when he comes homes at 6pm and it goes on till 12am. She has been trying every method to get him out of Sana's magic but all in vain. She has talked to him many a time but he says, he cannot leave Sana for her wife's sake but she never asked him to leave her.

She just wanted him give her a bit of his time and concern too. She has no issues with their friendship but she has issues with their texting all day long until they sleep neglecting Maria and her son. She dies a hundred time when she reads exchange of romantic messeges. She is trying being romantic with her husband for over 1 and a half years but her husband just says a THANK YOU in return.

It is being done with Maria and many others in a way or the other.

Now the question is; Why did Fakhar get married to Maria if he could not give her all the rights of being his wife.

We all have our personal lives but it just does not mean that we forget our responsibilities. Why don't these men understand that women are also human beings ? We cannot live an individual life as we are in connections, in relations

and above all in emotions.

There are always two sides; right or wrong; good or bad.

Either a person should hold a hand forever or he should never have even touched that hand.

Either you do it or you don't. If you try doing it, do it completely. If you have doubts, don't dare think of hurting someone(woman) who has been created on weak line or perhaps on the heart line.

Maria was beautiful :)

I add, Sana is engaged to her cousin ----- so ??? :)

And I add, A man is always lucky :)

And I promise, one day Fakhar will repent :)

I promise.... You'll see.... Maria will see....