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Tuesday 16 December 2014 0 comments

Yeh Dais Hamara Apna Hai





Yeh dais hamara apna hai
Sach yeh bhi sun lo lekin tum
Iss dais mein log 
Bhais badal kar rehtay hain

Apni bandook ki goli se 
Kisi apne ka khoon sehtay hain

Rasta bhi sab ka aik hai.. lekin
Manzil bhi sab ki aik hai.. lekin

Sab race lagaye phirtay hain

Main jeetoon ga
Tuu haaray ga
Yehi raag alaaptay rehtay hain

Main sacha hoon
Tuu jhoota hai
Yehi neendon mein duhratay hain

Yeh dais hamara apna hai..
Par yeh log kahan se aaye hain?
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Saturday 13 December 2014 1 comments

Qadam




Raastay ba-zaat e khud
Kuch nahin hotay
Raastay tab bantay hain
Jab qadam uthtay hain 
---


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Friday 12 December 2014 0 comments

Your Voice




She
Does
Not
Listen
To
Her
Heart
But
To
Your
Voice
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Tuesday 2 December 2014 0 comments

Koshish





Woh apni 
Tanha zindagi ko
Idhar udhar ki 
Baatain kar kay
Chhupane ki
Koshish kiya karti hai
Sab se 
Chhupa leti hai
Khud se
Nahi chhupa paati..


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Thursday 20 November 2014 0 comments

Muqaabla





Us ki aawaz ki chehek 
Aur aankhon ki chamak
Kam ho rahi thi..
Sardi aahista aahista 
Barhti ja rahi thi..
Aur woh sardi se bhi ziada 
Sarddd ho rahi thi..
Us ka sardi k saath 
Muqaablay ka rishta tha
Ya shayad apne saath....



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Friday 7 November 2014 0 comments

Chaand Aur Ham...





Uss raat chaand aadha tha
Aur ham pooray thay..
Aaj raat chaand poora hai
Aur ham aadhay hain..
Chaand bhi ham jaisa hai
Hai naa....???




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Monday 3 November 2014 0 comments

She is What She is...




She is the childhood. And she is the adulthood, too. And she is the youth. And she is the old age, too. All in One. At one moment, she is a cute little child, at the other, a gorgeous girl and yet another moment, she is an old soul telling you stories. I swear, she is one dangerous kind, you can never judge her, NEVER. And if you do, you are damaging yourself and not her because she is what she is.
She never takes it personal yet there are people who call her an extrovert and then, there are people who call her an introvert. She smiles at the judgments. The former title comes from the ones whom she loves, and, the latter one comes from the ones who want to catch her sight. But, she indeed is beyond their grasp until she permits. I would tell you that she is an extrovert only when she is enjoying being an introvert and she definitely is an introvert when she tries to be an extrovert. But you would not understand it. And it's okay because she does not understand it, either. 
She is just lost in herself whatever she is. You can never know what she is up to when you think you do. She is completely the opposite of what you think of her and, tell you what! it changes from one moment to another. In short, she is mad, unapologetically mad. She is what she is.  

 You want to know what witchcraft is?
Go, meet her......
And you will never be able to treat yourself.




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Saturday 18 October 2014 0 comments

Contradiction




Uss k falsafa e zindagi mein
Sirf falsafa tha
Zindagi kahin nahin...




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Transformed





Uss k tarz e zindagi mein
Kisi ka falsafa e zindagi tha
Woh khud kahin nahin...




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Tuesday 14 October 2014 0 comments

Winter





Here comes the winter.
And you? 
Where are you?


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Sunday 21 September 2014 0 comments

Fearless





And Finally 
She did it 
And she did it in a way
Nobody would ever do
She did it in her way
In her own fucking way
And
Hold on
She's not afraid 
Of the outcomes
That may come
Or
That may never..



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Monday 1 September 2014 0 comments

Dear C****sar...


To,

The Voice of C****sar,


It was 9 or perhaps 10am when I entered in the ground and saw quite a heavy number of people. While I was still walking, a voice hit my ear drums; a voice that sounded like an ultimate answer. In the sheer cold weather, it was the very voice that gave warmth to the shivering minds. 

I believed everything as long as it was coming from there. And then, whatever I saw in the ground, I saw it through that voice. I didn't see things through my eyes but through that voice. Seriously! Such was the effect, I swear. 

It was alarming. The moment the voice stopped coming, I stopped seeing. And with the coming back of the voice, my sight was restored, too. It was like magic, more daring than magic, perhaps.

I didn't wait for the next segment of the event but of course, for the next words. It was the voice that gave meaning to the words and nothing else in the whole ground. To end it up, I have not come across a voice more powerful and more hypnotizing as is yours, I swear.


Each horse was a boxer
And to each question
Your voice was the answer
To every other voice on earth
Your voice brings complete massacre
Meeting you was a pleasure,
Dear C****sar..


                                                 Yours sincerely,
                                                  Someone from Sakesar..





                                                              



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Saturday 23 August 2014 0 comments

Awakening





Kaali raat di kaali chaadar
Uttay taareyaan di chhaan
Te thallay vairhay wich
Main manji paa k baithi haan

Main, main vee nahin
Main koyi hor vee nahin

Main jindarhi nahin
Main jugni haan

Main Allah Allah kardi haan
Main hik Allah he nuu mandi haan
Main Allah di he marzi haan
...



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Friday 15 August 2014 2 comments

Milnay Walay...





Suno,
Milnay walay..

Rastay mein, 
Milnay walay..

Us zameen pe 
Tum milay ho
Jahan tum se 
Milnay ka
Koyi rasta 
Nahin hai..

  Tera rasta Mera rasta nahin hai...


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Saturday 21 June 2014 1 comments

Flashback





Aik parri ko urhtay daikha
Phir us k parron ko toot'tay daikha
Phir khuwab adhooray yaad aaye...




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Sunday 8 June 2014 0 comments

Raat Ka Dukh





Aik dukh hai jo zubaan nay bola hai
Magar woh hai k suntaa hi nahin
Meri raat ka dukh woh chuntaa hi nahin

Aik maan hai jo uss ne rakha hi nahin
Meri raat ka dukh woh chuntaa hi nahin



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Thursday 22 May 2014 1 comments

We Are One....






For all these two years of my stay at QAU, I have been telling this to them,

 Tum ne jannat ka suna hoga lekin
Mera jannat mein aana jana hai


Two solid years passed and sitting in the middle of the hostel's ground, I am facing the facets of some strange thoughts, 
"As if I'm being left by my beloved, as if I'm screaming with pain and my cruel beloved has turned deaf and blind and dumb towards my pain and misery. Some emotions are so intense and sheer. Aren't they? They tear you apart despite knowing that you would not die of them whatever may happen." 

I was feeling the same. My heart was drowning. My pulse was fading. My eyes were aching. I don't know what made my fingers type this all. Maybe, they were not typing, they were bleeding. Yes, it was my heart bleeding through my shivering fingers. 

We humans get attached to certain people in life, and we get attached to certain places, too. I am also one such human being. I do not have even a glimpse of where would I be, after these last days of my stay at Quaid i Azam University. But one thing that I am sure is, wherever I go, wherever I be, wherever I breathe, wherever I stay, I shall take you(read QAU) along, in my heart and mind and soul. 

You may disagree but here, I found out that everything, be it living or dead possesses a soul in it. It sees us. It observes us. It walks with us. It talks to us. It feels us. It smiles and gets annoyed with us. It gets both pleasure and pain from us. 

Ah! I am becoming water and fire, simultaneously. How would I not miss the green trees, the long wide roads, the line of food huts, the sight of the livestock roaming freely, the big blue buses, the big huge mountains, and yes, "the friends".... Do you think it is less painful than the leaving of beloved? No, a big No, a shouting No. It indeed has the same level of pain and misery and helplessness. Gradually and slowly, life takes away everthing from us that we start owning. It hurts us to the worst. It never thinks of our aching hearts. I am really not okay with it. 

Apparently, human beings as bodies seem complete but somewhere deep down, we all have some empty boxes and you(read QAU) have filled one such big empty box which, in a way, has made me a tiny part of your existence, too. You are not 'a place'. You are 'The Place'. You can never be left. You will never be left. 

But nevertheless, I am taking memories with me, I am taking many great friends with me, I am taking a new way of looking at things with me, and most of all, I am taking you with me in me. I am sorry, I cannot leave you for good. In order to keep myself in order, I will have to keep visiting you or otherwise I may cease to exist. Yes, I will have to visit you because we are not separate. I have many centres in my body and soul and you being one makes me say that we are one and so I will keep coming to you, time and again.

Let Shirin say, O folks, Quaid-i-Azam University that dwells between the mountains is not "a piece of land", it is rather "a piece of heaven" on land. And since I have had my bracket of time here and now is the time to leave, I also want to say it again but sadly in the past tense,
                                           
                                            Tum ne jannat ka suna hoga lekin
                                             Mera jannat mein aana jana 'tha'..




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Tuesday 13 May 2014 0 comments

Jhoot






"Tum mere paas nahin ho, 
Main tumhare paas nahin hun.."

Lekin ham dono jaantay hain
Kay yeh such nahin, 
Yeh jhoot hai....


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Friday 9 May 2014 0 comments

Shukraana





Hamain maangnay ki zaroorat nahin rahi
Hamain rehayee mil gayi hai
Shirin zuban bhi ham hain
Bayaan bhi ham hain
Nazar bhi ham hain
Zeher bhi ham hain
Hamee se dunia ki ronakain hain
Hamee se rangon ki kehkashain hain
Hamee se zinda muhabbatain bhi
hamee se nanni shararatain bhi
Hamee hain nafrat
Hamee muhabbat
Khuda gawah hai
Zuban chalay tu zamana thehray
Bayaan karain tu ghazal ki nisbat
Nazar uthayen tu dil hilaayen
Zehar hamara ilaaj jaisa
Khuda ne Shirin bana k ham ko
Asar bhi Shirin sa kar diya hai



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Wednesday 7 May 2014 0 comments

Thakan





Main na chaahun kuch bhi ab yahan
Barhi dair se go howa ayaan
K meri sabhi chaahaton ko zawaal hai...


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Saturday 3 May 2014 0 comments

Raastay





Raastay,
 Dushwaar ya hamwaar nahin hotay
Raastay tu bas raastay hotay hain
Dushwaar aur hamwaar tu haalaat hotay hain
Tum saath ho tu dushwaar raasta bhi hamwaar lagay
Tum saath nahi tu aasan raasta bhi dushwaar lagay
Raasta mushkil ho
Kathhin ho
Lamba ho
Ya phir 
Us k aakhir pe koi manzil na ho..
Main aankh se daikhun 
Ya nazar se daikhun
Tumhi raasta ho..
Tumhi manzil ho..
Apne andar reh k daikhun
Tab bhi tum hi ho..
Andar se bahar nikal k daikhun
Tab bhi tum hi ho..
Tumhara hona bhi
Tum hi ho...
Tumhara na hona bhi
Asal mein tum hi ho...


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Wednesday 30 April 2014 0 comments

Because She Is Stubborn




She does magic for others..
And for herself?
Forget it..

Cheragh ki roshni thi woh
Sab k liye roshni
Siwaye apne..

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Tuesday 29 April 2014 0 comments

Insan insaan kaise reh sakta hai?




Shaam ka waqt tha..
Suraj ghuroob ho chuka tha..
Main bahar Girls hostel k lawn mein chehel qadmi kar rahi thi..
Wahan kuch ladkiyaan aik group bna k baithi thieen..

Aur..

"Insan(human) insaan(humane) kaise reh sakta hai" 

pe baat cheet kar rahi thieen....
Sab ne apna apna nuqta beyaan kiya...
Aur kuch he dair baad wo wahan se chali gayeen..

Lekin main baithi rahi..
Sochti rahi..
Sochte sochte khayal aaya k..

Insan tab tak insaan reh hi nahin sakta
Jab tak wo insaanon mein hai..

Is liye ziada dair tak,
Insaan ko insaanon mein nahi rehna chahiye..

Kyun k,
Insaan rehne k liye,
Insaano se kuch doori boht zaroori hai....


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Sunday 27 April 2014 0 comments

Kahani





Saans khushk khushk hai
Ankhon mein rang nahin rahay
Boht se log ab sang nahin rahay
Har gunah ki ibteda ham se hi howi
Zuban pur taseer hi na thi shayad
Baat kabhi suni hi nahin gayi
Khayal, khushi aur khawab
Mukhtalif rang he tu hain azaab k
Apni khushbu bhi bhaag gayi ik din
Dar gayi hogi apne saaye se
Dil o jaan bhi tu hain tabhi ghabraye se
Hamari kashti k doobnay ka manzar
Bht bhaaya camera walon ko
Sada khush raho logo!
Kahani mukammal honay waali hai
Ab koyi na aaye idhar
Maut aanay hee waali hai....


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Monday 3 March 2014 0 comments

Nanha Shagufa




Uss ne, 
Hawa ki baat maan li
Woh urh gaya..
Hawa k sath sath
Woh najane kahan hai ab?
Meri nazar se duur
Har khabar se duur..

Magar nahin!

Woh jahan kahin bhi hai
Mere har hissay ka hissa hai
Meri zindagi ka qissa hai..
Main shaakh hun usski
Woh mera nanha shagufa hai.. 


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Monday 24 February 2014 0 comments

Dhoka





Tum aaye
Muskuraye 
Aur 
Mere paas baithay
Mujhe daikhte rahay...
Aur phir
Boht pyyar se
Mera hath pakar k 
Boht dair tak 
Mujhe manatay rahay...
Kabhi kabhi 
Tumhare khayal mujh ko 
Dikhayi daitay hain...



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Saturday 22 February 2014 3 comments

She Is Nuts...





Aap k baad har gharhi ham ne
Aap k saath hi guzaari hai
                       - Gulzaar


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Saturday 15 February 2014 0 comments

A Query




Toot k bikhar gaye hain
Samaitay bhi nahin ja saktay
Khawab mar kyun nahin jatay?


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Tuesday 11 February 2014 0 comments

Tongue-Tied




Khud se batain karne walon pe
Woh bohot hansa karti thi....
Ab woh bohot sharminda hai


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Wednesday 5 February 2014 0 comments

Application




Nabz ruki jaati hai
Dikhayi bhi nahin daita kuch
Logo! mujhe duaen do....


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Monday 3 February 2014 0 comments

Bhikaran




Wo boht dhitayi se aayi 
Aur maangne lagi
Royi bhi boht
Duaen bhi deen
Waastay bhi diye
Mujhe laga wo bhooki hai
Tu maine usay khana khila diya
Magar wo phir maangne lagi
Maine kaha jao maaf karo 
Wo phir bhi khadi rahi
Maine dubara kaha
Aur wo chali gayi
Us bhikaran ki koyi izzat he nahi thi 


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Sunday 2 February 2014 0 comments

Mercilessness




Pehle dil ki maan laiti thi
Ab daant daiti hoon
  Main apni maa ban gayi hoon shayad


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Monday 13 January 2014 0 comments

She Is A Sunflower




They did not care if she was listening to their remarks about her or not. They did not bother if she was getting hurt with that or not. They were having a great punch of time by making fun of her looks, of her words, of her talks, of her movements, of her expressions, of her clothes, of her mismatched pair of slippers, of her dying skin, of her hilarious replies to them. In short, they were making fun of "her" in every possible way.

And you know what? She actually did not know that she was being ridiculed. 

They called her crazy, they called her mad. But I called her Fateh BiBi. Yes, Maasi Fateh BiBi. 

Fateh BiBi belongs to a poor family who lives in a small town in District Khushab. She is married and she is a mother of four sons and one daughter, perhaps, if I am not misinformed. Her husband does not work because he has some physical deformity and so, she works for her husband, for her children and maybe for herself, too. After all, she is a human being too. She needs a lot for her survival like every other creature on the planet earth. But, I disagree here. She does not seem surviving. She just does not know if she is a human or if she also needs love and respect or maybe I guess, she does not know what love is and what respect is. She had lost her senses in an accident long back in time and that made her this way. She understands everything but in her own innocent ways which people think funny. And there she is, now. 

Well, she works as a maid in different houses. She gets paid for working for them but she never gets paid for making them laugh.And one thing, she cannot work silently, she keeps speaking while working. Now, the question is, what does she speak? She speaks everything. Let me try to name it, she speaks everything in a very very serious way which looks funny and which sounds so so hilarious. This is what I concluded after observing the behavior of people with her. It was the funeral of someone where I met her.

Fateh BiBi does not get upset with the behavior of people. She laughs with them, at herself, not knowing that she is being laughed at. Her mind cannot tell the difference. She does not care either. Her head and heart don't work, perhaps. Because, why would she not react on the ridiculous behavior of people, if she be a normal human. 

She worked, and worked and worked. I did not see her sitting, even for 5 minutes. No, 5 minutes are too much, perhaps. She did not sit for a minute even. She just kept doing what people there asked her to do. 

I want to ask how can we be so merciless? Oh, I know the answer. The answer lies in another question and that is, why would not we be merciless to someone who is helpless? It is so easy to be ruthless and to be cruel to someone who is weaker and helpless. Not men but a crowd of women to "a woman" were being like this and that too, so proudly and happily.

But, I liked talking to her. I seriously liked it. I found her so innocent. I found her so pure and childlike. She is a super woman, for me at least. She faces people with such courage and strength. She does not stumble. She has a weaker mind but she has an incredible amount of patience. And see, she is raising a family. 

And people, I take my words back which I uttered earlier that, "She just does not know if she is a human or if she also needs love and respect or maybe I guess, she does not know what love is and what respect is." 

She does definitely know that she is a human and she also knows what love is and what respect is. She just does not say it. Not saying does not mean not knowing. Right? She speaks with love and softness, which means she knows of love and in knowing love, she knows of respect, too. 

Maasi Fateh BiBi, you are not mad, you are not crazy either. It is us. It is the people who do not care for you. While talking to her, she made me a special cup of tea in which she added a pinch of salt too saying that it would double it's taste. Yes, that cup of tea was amazing. I don't know what doubled the taste? The pinch of salt or the innocence that I felt in her. She also said that she likes the warmth of sun and so, she likes to sit in it. She is, indeed a sunflower. 


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